And the prayers go up...

Thursday is creeping closer and I am reminded daily of God's perfect timing in all things. Through Caleb's little life most people have been surprised to find out that he deals with long-term medical issues... that is, until I started waffling about whether or not we should really put him through this surgery.

Through the last two years, and especially the past 12 months, we have been to more doctor visits for this one child than all other 5 combined. Most certainly, we have been to specialists I did not ever desire to have to go to and others I didn't even know existed. After multiple tests and blood draws and CT scans, the final plan came down to surgery, with an 80% success rate.

At first, I was sure it was the right thing to do. Then, Caleb slept through the night a few times and had a couple of "good" days and I began to question everything. However, all this sickness is taking a toll on his little body and over the last three weeks he has really been crumbling, so much so that perfect strangers are asking us if he is feeling ok...

So, while this is not the cheery blog post I would normally desire to write, it is real life. God has blessed our family so richly with each of our children, and Caleb is a precious part of that blessing. The Lord knew before Caleb ever arrived that we would be here today, on the eve of surgery following a life-long health struggle for our little guy, and knowing that God is in complete control of this situation is a great comfort to me. I am thankful for Caleb because his life has taught me more than anything else about truly trusting God, without questioning Him, but just quietly trusting. I will be honest, tonight as I find it hard to sleep, my mind running a little marathon, it is a deliberate and difficult choice to make, but one met with a peace that passes all understanding, just like the Word promises to provide.

If you think of my little guy over the next few days, please pray for him, for a safe and successful surgery; for the doctors to have wisdom and skill; for us to provide his care and be able to comfort him; for his siblings at home, that they be able to trust God with their brother; and that we would be able to point to Christ and share the Good News through this whole experience.

I best get to bed, the wee ones don't often sleep in... lots of little things to do tomorrow to prepare... like pray!